Anyway....this post has nothing to do with spam calls or real estate for that matter. After I told the caller I am not looking to switch brokerages, I decided to look up the agent's website.
Here's where the topic changes.
I'm reading the bio on the agent/team leader. He has a full page dedicated to his 'How I got here' success story. He tells us where he grew up and how he was working for a Fortune 100 company before deciding to make a change.
As the life story drones on, he goes into more personal discussion and states... (and I kinda gagged)
"I met Melissa (not her real name) and knew she'd be an excellent wife and business partner."
BLLEEECHHH!!!!!
This is where the reading stopped, the phone set down, my stomach curdled and my fingers hopped on here.
First...a disclaimer! I know not all men are this way.
Back to misogyny...
Has my singleness suddenly made me super sensitive or aware of this undertone of male superiority? Am I late to the game? Yes I know about the male ego...but damn! Are they really so oblivious to how they frame things? I'm guessing this guy loves his wife and they are a great team, but does he get how this sounds?
"I, the successful male, looked over the earth and, to my delight, I found a lovely and suitable woman that will meet my very specific qualifications."
Yuck. Am I overreacting?
As I type this, I am sitting in front of a dozen beautiful roses in my very favorite shade of pink. These lovely blooms were given to me several days ago by a guy I (was) seeing for just under two weeks. During this two week period, I was inundated with his
bold 'I' statements of 'this is who I am' 'this is what I'm looking for'. I met this man for the first time on a Saturday evening. We went to dinner and then dancing. It was a blast! He wanted to see me again the next day and I was up for it. As he walked in my door, he immediately announced that he had lots to say after much thought on the 45 minute drive to my home.
He said, 'I want to tell you three things"
1. Why I want to date you. 2. Why I like you. 3. What I want.
That was the beginning of the end. He had his mental checklist out and was looking at me and qualifying me. We were no longer two individuals. He was curating a future and pondering how I fit into it. He referred to his physical needs and how great he is in bed.
He may be a dream boat for many women! But all I kept hearing and continue to hear around me is this narrative of how I should feel 'lucky to meet so many of [his needs]' as if I am subject to qualifying.
Many women my age have ingrained in our minds that meeting a man's checklist is the golden ticket. And...in his defense, he's been taught that he needs to play a certain role as well. Be the big strong provider, be a protector, find a good woman that will make you proud to have her by your side.
But the man (real estate agent) that triggered this rant is not my age. He's much younger. I'd say at least 15-20 years. That's disturbing to me. I don't have a problem with men being protectors or providers, and I don't mind feeling protected and I'm totally fine if he wants to pay the bills! Chivalry is great. I'm okay with my femininity and gender differences as long as I am a 100% contributor to the decisions being made. We are a 'WE'! What I'm not okay with is the idea that women are still...in this day and age...being sized up and qualified for a role that is often viewed as being 'chosen'. Relationships are partnerships. Regardless of the role within the relationship, we are equals. Stay at home mom or CEO, our worth is not determined by another and especially by a potential mate. Partners should be chosen for compatibility, shared values, shared interests, and the magic that only those two can create.
We see it in movies...Oh she'd make a great wife or parents coaxing their daughters to look and behave a certain way to garner the prized bachelor. We never see this in reverse.
The man mentioned two paragraphs ago is not a bad guy. He's just stuck in a time warp and he believes in it with his whole heart. He's kind, handsome, and well meaning but his lack of awareness is allowing his to run the show.
We shared some kisses and hugs and lots of eye gazes, yet he complained that I wasn't giving him the reaction he needed. "I've never had any woman respond to me like this!" As he sort of throws his hands up, "You don't say the things I'm used to hearing." HA! There it is...His ego wasn't getting any love. I still have no idea what he needed or wanted. To me, a relationship that was less than 72 hours old might need a little time to bloom...call me crazy!!
Men like to call women complicated. Nah. We are simple. Straight forward. Don't touch me like that. Don't say that to me. Clean up your mess. Is that complicated? No. Not one little bit. It's crystal clear. But it is so clear that it hurts! Men like nuance. They like blurry edges. This is how some men get into trouble. We say 'No." Clear? Yes. But their selective hearing gives their ego permission to hear/see what they want.
We get complicated when we stop being true to ourselves and start trying to be some other version of ourselves. We aren't decisive, direct, or honest. Trust me, we actually know exactly what we want.
Every woman wants what she wants and she knows what it is. And he does too. It's just that he isn't the sole judge. You both are making the choices and the decisions.
Pay attention to the language. Listen to the narrative. No one gets to 'sum you up' or qualify you. You are a beautiful creation standing all on your own. No need to fawn in his gaze as he warmly tells you how you meet his list of needs.
No. Snap out of it!
You do not need approval from anyone to affirm your worth or value in this life.